ahead of our time, a salute

With everything that's been happening, I forgot that last night was supposed to be the birthday dinner of one of my high school best friends - it was also her baby shower for she's due at month's end. Receiving her message "wr u n" is a breath of fresh air I jumped out of my seat and sped thru EDSA despite the rush hour.

Then I got another message as I was navigating towards the leftmost lane, presumably the lane for fast vehicles and for overtaking. The message that changed everything.

As what I have been doing lately, I dwell on maybe's and hypotheticals for lack of better answers. So maybe it was the fact that my two best friends from highschool are there, maybe because it was Lora's 31st, or her first baby, or Vida's 3rd. Or maybe it was the message. But tonight I decided to come clean and let two of the closest friends I have to know who I am.Maybe it was just the right time.

I came out to Lora and Vida tonight, after years of trying to do so every time there's a special occassion for the 3 of us - Christmas, birthdays, even newborns and deaths. we are the BFFs - the three misfits and unwanteds, the ones ahead of our time in terms of acceptance and tolerance. Lora and I have a lot in common, Vida is probably the kindest person around. We were never understood by our generation of sayanista's because we disdain the priviledge of talent simply because we can. All those previous occassions I always find petty excuses not to blurt out the truth.

That was then, this is now. Oh how much I changed and how good I feel about this change. So at the right moment, I said it. I told my very best friends about me, the real me. And they understood and accepted my truth, no frills, no drums. Just silent smiles and everything is understood. Words will come later, of course, but they were not needed.

Silence in this case, is the treasure that made the moment sparkle and this will remain with me forever.

To Vida and Lora.