'tis the season

I am like most people.

I meant when it comes to having that buoyant feeling when Christmas is approaching. It's probably because I was born and raised strictly Catholic, where every year Christmas is a major, big production. Even now that I'm an agnostic, I still see Christmas as a celebration.

But there's another thing about this season for me, and I don't know if I am like most people in this sense. This time of year, I accumulate stuff and do many new things, too many I barely have time to think before I leap.

New car. More purchases. Breakups. New relationships. New resolutions. New places to visit. Change dentist, change insurer. Stuff that would have big effects on my coming year, I do and decide on them this time without much thinking. It's like I woke up one morning, at the right side of the bed and decided things must change with the year.

Of course, when I say without thinking, it's more like thinking with my instincts on top of my brain. Whatever feels right. No overanalyzing. If it feels right, it must be.

So this time of year, am doing and experiencing things because they all feel right. No need to figure out the reason, for reason comes second to instinct. What feels right, simply is.

I'm going to my first Pride March this weekend.

I'm buying a Fortuner.

I'm changing the sheets (I meant buy new schemes, stuuupeeeed.)

I'm replacing the houseplants.

I'm seeing the tarsiers before Christmas.

I'm spending Christmas with my parents.

I'm saying yes to love and giving it a chance.

Whatever feels right. I figured I'll have the whole year to think about these things, so why think about them now? If I'm lucky, I don't have to, at all. Because what's right, goes on right.