on migraine and 6am flights

Halfway through an unusually lengthy migraine attack, and the threat of being sent to Brunei during Holy Week, plus the panic and paranoia brought by delays with the launch of an online retail site being designed by a team chosen on the merit of friendship and not of competence, I stop and take a deep breath, and allow myself to be saddened even more by Foxy's seemingly unexpected departure this morning. It just seemed rushed and unexpected, though she announced it to me 2 weeks before (and sort of told everyone last Christmas, when she also announced her engagement).

I've known in advance, but I was still taken by surprise. Ngayon!? Now na? I thought it would happen pretty later,not sooner. The last time I saw her she needed to talk about the separation. I didn't think it would be as soon as 6am today.

I'll probably see her in a few months. Or maybe not. She left with no plans of coming back, what with the wedding and all other things in her mind. If she had her way she'll return only to visit. If she had her way she'll probably prefer that her friends visit her instead. She felt there's nothing keeping her here. In a different life I would have shared her views.

We don't see each other that often, mostly during holiday meetups and the occassional "I just need to talk..." moments that seemed to have become less frequent as we both settled in our own domestic bliss *wink*...but that doesn't diminish the sadness in realizing you have one less friend on the speed dial whom you can call when you badly need someone to talk to or listen to.

She'll probably read this tomorrow...or the day after. Am keeping my YM on, just in case she finds a way to chat while waiting for her connecting flight. Oh I miss her already.

Anyway, migraine's almost gone. They say coffee's bad for it but heck, I want my caffeine, so I'll load it up. Half dozen cups and a mope-y blog...i'll bitch about that website later and try to fight being thrown to that island below Mindanao. Nothing against the Sultanate but pleeez, not during Holy week...