untangle me, again

This is me....

I keep a plant by the window, and rotate it by 90 degrees every other day to prevent it from following the sun just one way. I water it every other day. I talk to it, though in whispers. I re-potted it mid-August, right after the Patch-up, and how I wish it'd start to grow now that it's getting the better attention it deserves.

I sleep when the sun is about to rise. Irony is that I can't sleep once the sun is up, so I have to shut my eyes at the right time or else I won't at all. Melatonin gives me headaches.

I hate dust. I am allergic to dust. I use this as an excuse not to clean up.

I drink coffee more than I drink water. Explains why I look dehydrated and nervy. I love instant coffee. I love sugar. Technically, I won't call it having coffee but having sugar.

I hate doing groceries. I don't do grocery lists. I usually end up with a headache when grocery shopping.

I listen to Madonna as much as I listen to Duncan Sheik and watch CNN's Anderson Cooper. I support piracy. I buy music from iTunes. I borrow books, and lend magazines.

In addition to my coffee/sugar addiction, I am a sucker for urgency...I look at my SMS and email alerts every minute. I respond to text messages within seconds. That tells you I expect the same, and that if I do not respond right away I haven't decided what to say.

I love working out, though I am lazy sometimes. I run on the treadmill like crazy, and do crazy abs workouts that get both confused smiles and attentive looks at the gym. I do hanging leg raised. Sideway crunches. Core exercises.

I am friends with my ex-es, though not in a let's-have-coffee-and-a-movie-once-a-week kind of friendly. That would simply be weird, considering we're dating someone one way or the other.

I played cupid several times. Not successful at all. Would have given up a long time ago, but once in a while I still try to play matchmaker. Ever the romantic, I guess.

I believe in motives and intentions, kind or cruel they exist. The company I keep is diverse and varied - though they all have one thing in common - honesty.

I care a lot. Sometimes too much. I am jealous. I try to keep my head down, yet I yearn for attention and recognition.

I know sacrifice. I know hardship. I know heartache. I know happiness. I know fear. I know regret. I know loss. I know hope.

I have lived, and died, and lived again. Same is true for love and hate. I am human, a proud one.

This is me.