Irrational fears, self-doubt and that glimmer of something you can't quite put your finger on

I have to admit I have just entered a new and foreign territory here. I try to wing it, put on a brave front, march forward with that air of confidence I do not feel but pretend to have anyway. All I know is that I'd be the biggest loser if I didn't try.

To my few select readers, you know that I'll try to be as vague as I possibly can. Some of you may know what I am talking about, most don't have any idea, which is a good thing. I'll try to keep it in codes as much.

I don't know what makes you more vulnerable - is it you opening your heart to someone, welcoming them in your life, or is it when you realize that someone opened their heart to you and welcomed you in their life?

Are these independent and mutually exclusive? Will you open your heart and welcome someone in even when you don't see the same thing happening from his end? Or will he do the same when you're simply not ready to welcome him? I sure hope not.

All I know is that I feel vulnerable right now - for both reasons. So there you go, here's one living proof that these things could be not mutually exclusive. 

Next you'll hear me belting out a song. Warning - this guy can't carry a tune...