Mutterings of a treadmill junkie

What the hell are you doing
Jogging at half past midnight for crying out loud
Am starting to really not like you
Damn it!

So why am I still so much attracted to you in spite of everything
Maybe I should ditch the treadmill and jog along Leviste instead
But that would be crazy
Why go the extra mile just to chance bumping with you
When all I have to do is keep eye contact at the gym
And maybe smile a little
Or nod, whatever, as long as I keep your gaze longer than 3 seconds

Really crazy
Was going 60 on a street that requires 20
Went down to zero faster than a falling apple, my golly
And guess what?
I drove around and 'round until I saw you again
Only to cross paths with you after I've stopped and given up

Thought I've had enough
Seems like I'll never have enough
Damn
Not enough of you
Enough with this folly
But not enough with you
Damn this heart
Or is it the heart or the weaker ego?
Whatever it is, damn it, I have to go

Go
Can't go
Not now
Maybe not ever
Maybe I shouldn't at all
The irony is that the the easier it gets for me to get to you
The faster I know this will end
The higher the certainty
That when I have you I'd lose you
And in turn lose myself in the process

Do I want that?
Fall for you and lose you in an instant?
Yes I can hold your gaze for more than 3 seconds, without flinching
Yes I can get your attention to be your next guy, a few weeks maybe
But I can't be just the next guy
I don't want to be temporary
A flicker unnoticed in the daylight
Too weak at dusk, too weak at dawn
So here I go
Too strong-willed for anyone but you
Too clear about everything but my feelings for you
Too happy to be not with you
Too sad to be with everyone but you
Damn streets of Salcedo
I'll jog when I'm ready
But will I ever be ready for you?