Untitled AK

It's been a year since my AK episode. Here is what I've written at the time the whole thing was happening:

Friday 07/01/2005 10:29PM @Starbucks Valero

"I was fine until he came along. How am I going to get through this?

"I wish I never opened my heart to anyone. I wish I stayed cold-blooded, counting one-night stands, wrecking relationships. That's what I do best. I wish I didn't allow myself to love at all.

"TO hell with it! Fuck it! Most importantly, to hell with AK! I deserve someone better, someone who would allow me into his heart and his life. Someone who would choose me over everything else, the way I would choose him over everything else. I know it's a tough act to find, but the only thing left in me is the ability to dream. I won't let it be taken away.

"One day I will look back and laugh at myself, at my folly. Because that's what this is - foolishness. I hope someday comes sooner."

What a comfort to know that I was right. Here I am, laughing at myself, even wondering what the hell was I thinking back then?

Still, it was a time of many great things for me. Foolish, perhaps, but great nonetheless. Palawan, Pulag, my first campaign, Pride Week. Aaah Pride Week. I missed it this year, I barely passed by Nakpil-Orosa last Saturday night and stayed a few minutes, got bored (not to mention I have some very uptight friends in tow having panic attacks, afraid of being spotted) so I went home and slept forever...until it was time for the gym...another one for the blogs.